hi- i don’t have a name yet. at least, i don’t want to use my real name on my public site. my socials are all privated, so i’m not used to this level of exposure. it’s highly likely no one is reading this anyway(except maybe my irl friends), so it’s not a huge deal, but the public nature of a operating a whole blog is scary. im a pretty private person when it comes to the internet. my digital footprint from when i had unrestricted access to facebook as a teenager is scary enough. i also have ocd, which unfortunately rules a lot of aspects of how i operate. lots of anxiety, lots of (some might say) irrational fears.
this feels very similar to when i had a tumblr. that site was public too, but felt more private, and yet was potentially even more public than this little blip on the web. i want it to be like my tumblr in the sense that i got to customize my own page and do whatever i wanted. granted, instead of reblogged content it’ll all be original. that’s also scary- because what if i’m not entertaining enough? but that’s the fun part, isn’t it? this is all exactly what i want it to be. theoretically, i’m not performing for anyone here.
i was inspired to create this site after seeing a few youtube videos about other artists abandoning social media for the freedom of their own website. i’m not exactly an artist, but i’m also not exactly not an artist. i really miss how customizable tumblr and myspace/bebo were when i was on those sites. i want that again. plus, this is a whole new thing to keep me occupied.
funny how this is supposed to me about me, and yet i haven’t really told you anything about me. the internet isn’t always the best place to be vulnerable.